| New Month... |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|02:34 pm] |
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plus a few days. Just logging in for a quick note. looking forward to tablesaw's Egg's files shindig. Younger bro and I finished our first project (nephew's 1st birthday party/"breakdown"[term were using for recasting characters]) which is ready to show to the fam on easter. got a replacement car since i wrecked my focus. have car insurance and started the process of re-instating my license (was suspended for a year). still working on keeping HS legal. Doing very well with resolutions regarding being just friends with RM. Nothing else really to report as far as love life goes. been spending to many nights at the bar playing darts after hours, but its fun to be good at something so i'll keep doing it. lastly, hoping for a surprise vegas trip soon cuz i am desperate to lose some money there again... as soon as i can afford it. if anybody reads this, know a good spot to go camping in? |
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| concerts and games |
[Jan. 31st, 2005|11:33 pm] |
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| | ready to drink! | ] |
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| | imogen heap | ] |
just a quick update on my life in general. i went to a concert with my roommate, a friend and that friends boyfriend, venice at the canyon club in agoura hills. www.venicecentral.com (sorry, don't know my code well enough to acutally make that link, you'll just have to copy and paste old school style to check them out). also went to a bar buddy's brother-in-laws birthday party at a vip room in the staples center to watch the lakers squeeze one out over the charlotte bobcats! (side note, i dont care about sports at all!!) thats it for now. |
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| and the band played on... |
[Jan. 21st, 2005|02:02 pm] |
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| | coldplay - daylight | ] |
i decided to write in here again. might be a frequent thing (but thats not a threat, i just have a lotta free time). to inspire me or encourage me or just get me write more than one line, coldplay is currently emoting there lyrics through my computer. I am definitely gonna have to get dressed today earlier than yesterday. gotta hit the bank, possibly stop by and see a friend, eat, watch tv and set the vcr. i would love to have a car and go get the crossover cable to connect my moms old computer to her new one (used g4 mac from ebay) but i dont have a car. (just in case anyone out there reading this didn't know, i wrecked my car the day before thanks giving and not having insurance as i did, i lucked out that he claimed fault and that his insurance put down 7500 buck. but i still owed 8600, -700 when i canceled the extended warranty. all told, i still owe 400 dollars and don't have anything to show for it all.) so i can just drive over to fry's. i could ride my bike, but i am too lazy. and i couldn't bring the computer over to my moms to finish the job, so skip it. this weekend is outta the question too, turns out i am working somewhere around 22 hours over two days. it will surely help to have that cash for rent and savings for the car (if i can ever save enough). so i will be walking to the bank later. and thats about the extent to which i am going to exert myself. and thats about the extent to which i will exert my thoughts. |
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| Digital Cleanup |
[Jan. 18th, 2005|02:41 pm] |
edited my friendster profile to include some newer info, re-accessed my guzzlefish account so i can start adding all my stuffs (and then know what i am missing). updated my journal settings. very exciting day. i should probably eat soon. and then i'll have to figure out going to work. -side note- does it mean something when it changes from in a relationship to single or does the location dictate the lower value of the meaning of your status?... and i have to shower and get dressed for the day.
hey, thats two days in a row! |
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| I'm 28!!!! |
[Jan. 17th, 2005|02:22 pm] |
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its my birthday and i decided to make an update to the live journal. its been a long ass time since i posted. so i know no one is reading this. which means i dont need to puctuate or spell well or worry about gramatic mistakes. gonna go out to dinner tonight then to the bar where i suspect the bartenders (who have become friends with all the time i spend there) are giving me a cake. then off to the frisky kitty where i am almost as present as i am at the bar. hopefully someone will be pathetic enough to have made some effort to redeem herself. if not, she will be living up to the already low standard i expect. for now i am gonna smoke a cigarette and eat some lunch. if anybody reads this, post a comment. |
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| friends? |
[Sep. 28th, 2003|12:54 pm] |
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not the light post i was thinking of earlier... i got woken up by the phone ringing and knew i didnt want to answer. and i did anyways. and on the other end was the explosive misunderstanding person i thought i was going to hear. i didnt mean you (and you boyfriend) dont care about us. i didnt mean you (and your boyfriend) owe us. sometimes things are hard to hear and i had no doubt in my mind that if i was going to be honest about thing, you would not like it. i didnt get to completely explain myself and now you wont take my calls... which is great, because what i was looking to do was to widen the gap between us. i was looking to divide even further. it kind of sucks to be misunderstood and then feel its my fault. i was hung up on, how am i supposed to have completed my thoughts when i was cut off. beyond that, i was just not understood. it wasn't an attack, i was just trying to say something. and in all honesty, if i had done something wrong or been inconsiderate in you eyes, i would never have brought mine down with me. these were things about you, not him. as much as i have gotten to know and love him, it was you i was talking to... and above all other things, dont listen to anything i have said at all.. forget all of it because i am bitter and pissed at the world for making it tough to get back on my feet. and that has nothing to do with you. i know you love us and hold us in your heart. i also hope you know i am an ass and there is no way around that sometimes. sorry. sorry. |
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| nothing exciting here |
[Sep. 25th, 2003|08:14 am] |
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i worked last night. in fact i was doing really well, about an hour ahead of the schedule set for me. and around midnight, i remembered that the new parking pass i got had this stipulation about leaving your keys with the valet... you need to go get them before 8. which i forgot... so my roommate drove my spare set of keys all the way out to me at work so i could drive me car home and sleep for a few hours before i had to get up again and drive to work at the other job. i am now awake, cleanly shaved and ready for my day. breakfast... and then to the bank to work out some things with my moneys. and then work. and then after work, more work. thats mine, how your day look? |
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| sigh |
[Sep. 24th, 2003|03:48 am] |
so getting a paycheck was good... getting a steady paycheck would be better. i feel like i haven't worked in for-ever! i worked today, and will work tomorrow (wednesday). then at a different job, on thursday and friday... but for those of you who dont have to fight to work, who have 5 days a week of set hours and pretty much the same paycheck all the time, let me just say how hard it is to know how to budget when you dont know what you are going to have. like a good little consumer, i paid bill when i had money. and then my bank and one of my creditcards spazzed out and paid itself twice, and now i have no money... even after i called and tried to avoid this mistake this afternoon. and had there been no mistake, i would not have enough money for rent when it was due, and certainly not enough to pay off the ticket i have to go to court for on monday. and i still owe money. i hate money when its not free flowing, in my hands and especially when money is being this little beeach you just want to slap around and say "look, i work hard. i am a professional and i am good at what i do. stop causing me all this frustration!!!!" yeah. i hate that. i also hate that i dont have someone. at least, not the way i think i want them. i got friends and family who all love me. and thats all well and good... and if you dont have that someone, its just a little less bright.
p.s. my old ass computer is also frustrating. just play the dvd with out skipping you sorry pentium!!! |
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| underworld |
[Sep. 23rd, 2003|03:47 am] |
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| | none.. or dont you read the entry? | ] |
that could have easily gone in the what music am i listening to right now, as i have some underworld, but i am not listening to it right now. that refers to
the movie, which i quite enjoyed this evening. i dont know what i did to get so terribly off schedule, but i my sleeping habits from last week to this are totally wacked. i think i have gone to bed around 6 am for the last 3 or 4 nights in a row. hopefully, laying down at this "early" hour will help. although, i am going to put a movie on my computer to entertain me while i drift, if i drift. back to that movie... kate beckinsale (also seen in serendipity with john cusack) was quite good as a brooding dark character. as was scott speedman. looking forward to a sequel if there is one, and there should be. anyone else seen this film yet? |
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| history |
[Sep. 22nd, 2003|03:39 am] |
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| | none, my roommates asleep | ] |
quick entries are better than nothing, i think. i was just talking to someone the other day about how i have made all the wrong choices when it comes to women. right now i want to change that to say i have been attracted to women who i was all wrong for or who were all wrong for me. and the ones who were attracted back, well... things happened that further enhanced the wrongness. to neither of our credits, because the relationships were doomed, i dont have a relationship with almost all of them. i still talk to the first one and one other. they seem to be the exception (and understandably, because they are exceptional people). what i have been grinding on recently is the ones that it ended with... there is only what happened, what i held onto, left. and i have some difficulty letting go of it (with varying degrees depending on who it relates to). none of this has helped me stop picking the wrong one, or being attracted to the wrong one... or deal with it in any way at all. mostly, i liked who i was with them. mostly... actually, i really liked being liked by someone i was attracted to. something about that feels good... better than being attracted to someone and not having it returned, or someone being attracted to me and i cant return the feeling. i have said attracted to all together too many times not to realize and share that i didnt just feel physical attraction to these people. i got to know about them too and was attracted to the person (or potential) i thought i could see. sometimes they would end it, sometimes i would. i am just a little troubled that i feel like i am repeating myself, my choices, and there isnt an obvious way out of this loop.... i am going to go reset my brain infront of the tv for a bit. 4:17 am, and i dont have to work tomorrow. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2003|10:20 pm] |
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had a big party last night cuz i finally got paid. it was lots of fun.. but this morning wasnt. and when i finally dragged my body out of bed, the sun set. but i dont have to work tomorrow, so i can recover for another day. |
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| its been a while |
[Sep. 19th, 2003|06:38 am] |
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and i swore i wouldn't log untill i put a paycheck in the back. and now i have... and now i have. and i will start logging again for those loyal readers. and for myself. i was waiting untill i had something good to write about. |
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| ho humm |
[Jul. 7th, 2003|01:16 am] |
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| | mix, but right now its fatboy slim - tweakers delight | ] |
kids party was a blast.. but totally hurt my back (slammed on a desk) while having the fun. 'sokay. also saw hulk, better than i expected. although going with my sister proved to be the best part. she screamed and cooed and ahhed and all the rest at all the parts you were supposed to, which made me laugh. OH! my back balance is so sad! |
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| eh |
[Jun. 19th, 2003|11:59 am] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
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| | none. mbe just ended | ] |
notice there is no job this time? 'scuz i didnt make it past the first interview (group of about 50 or so people). the company seemed legit enough, although the fact that the person running the interview started in the same position we would be filling about 2 months ago was not so reassuring. "we are an international company" who is expanding so fast in the business of scouting talent in the entertainment capitol of the world we cant seem to keep our employees from stepping up the ladder every week leaving holes in the bottom of our company! on second thought, it might have been closer to a pyramid scheme. oh well, they didnt want me! and now i got one week left of babysitting before i am back to total unemployment. mentioning that reminds me i need to re-investigate unemployment benefits. it confuses me that being fired doesnt qualify me for unemployment. yeah, they had a good reason (in their oppinion). my family has said you cant get unemployment benefits if you quit, which makes sense. so when do you get it? only when you are laid off because of downsizing or something? lets hope not. now its time to surf the net for work that wouldnt bore me to death or to sleep. at least i get to go out tonight! |
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| job. eh. |
[Jun. 19th, 2003|08:16 am] |
going to an interview this morning... its for a talent agency to be a scout. should be interesting if nothing else. i hope its legit. took the day off from the kids for this. and as you can read by my enthusiasm, i am really excited about this job. |
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[Jun. 16th, 2003|02:28 am] |
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so i had a good weekend. not going to write about it here. but it was good. although i dont have a job, so not that good. i did assemble a porch swing. at least thats something nice. i like being able to go some where and see something i've done. the the garbage disposal i installed for my mom. i like to be able to just turn that on and know its there because i decided i could do it, no need to call a plumber. and it works! of course i follow directions, but it still amazes me sometimes... does your mind ever just wander into the past for no reason? way back? man i dont want to relive all that stuff i messed up. i messed it up and survived and came out ok. cant i just think about that? well... my eyes are crossing, that means i need sleep. maybe i should try and post during the early evening when i have a little more control over my brain... but this was nice. maybe not. |
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| and the long gap between posts is broken |
[Jun. 14th, 2003|12:21 am] |
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its been a while. but i had stuff to do! like get the final blow off from the person who i was burning that cd for. dang! before it was even listened to! ah well. i have never been able to pick someone. they all turn out badly... not that i picked them all, there was a certain amount of them picking me (i would like to think, lets hope for my sake otherwise i got bigger problems than just being unemployeed). I think i am going to go out for a drink i can afford... and maybe a little distraction. |
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| the promised track list |
[Jun. 7th, 2003|05:51 pm] |
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| | none, but i have many choices! | ] |
cd title: lilsweet's mix by dj emk2 (dont loose me either)
01=Everybody Needs Somebody=Blues Brothers *
02=United States of Whatever=Sifl & Ollie
03=Help is Round the Corner=Coldplay
04=Gritty Barnyard Harmonics w/Brian Regan=dj emk2 *
05=A Mistake=Fiona Apple
06=Almost Happy=K's Choice
07=I'm Finding It Harder To Be A Gentleman=The White Stripes
08=High Time=Michael Penn
09=Go On Ahead=Liz Phair
10=Sigur Ros Untitled 1 Moulin Rouge Redux=dj emk2 *
11=Yellow=Coldplay
12=It's A Motherfucker=The Eels
13=All In Your Mind=Beck
14=Any Other Name - Beauty of Oz=dj emk2 *
15=Over The Rainbow What A Wonderful World=Finding Forrester MPST - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole *
16=Seinfeldest Geometry Problem In The World=dj emk2 *
17=Boss On The Boat - Seinfeld=dj emk2 *
18=Six Feet Under Main Theme=Rae & Christian
19=Rock In The Rain=Money Mark
20=Here Come The Flood=Peter Gabriel
21=Lonesome Tears=Beck
22=Answer The Phone=Sifl & Ollie
23=Pinto's New Car Edit=dj emk2 *
Also... to fill in the extra 30 mins. on the tape version (for the car)
Bonus tracks
24=Blowin' me up (with her love)=JC Chasez
25=Right for me=Justin Timberlake
26=Crests of Waves=Coldplay
27=Animals=Coldplay
28=1.36=Coldplay
29=I Ran Away=Coldplay
30=The Album Review Remix=dj emk2 *
* I added clips from movies or comedians over instrumental music or edited the song short to work better with the intro for the next track. a little to much to detail here, but if asked i could tell ya or share it as an mp3 (or something). Track 30 is the first 21 tracks cut down to 5 minutes (for speed listening)
Lastly, its a play on E=MC^2 (squared) only using my initials. |
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| long night of restlessness |
[Jun. 5th, 2003|09:41 am] |
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i got a cold from my nephew. and now i have taken some dayquil. i hope i feel better soon... listened to the cd i made a bunch of times and one of the tracks bothered my. so i redid it. its better, but now i gotta print new labels and burn a new copy. and there is an accompanying letter of explaination i am working on. which is taking a while since almost all the track need some exp. and i am also writing a regular old letter in it to. i think i am going to take a nap. |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2003|09:47 pm] |
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i have a headache. acetametaphine doesn't work, if thats how you spell it. and beer is taking too long. i dont think i will ever write an entry that will be too interesting, but feel obligated to try since i enjoy getting comments and making comments and reading what my friends have decided to share. taking a month off from work doesnt help you much when you go back to it... and when you go back to something so unfamiliar as babysitting (when you used to be a computer artist/graphic artist). this is a whole different kind of tired. and pain. but its money, so i guess i will suck it up and stick it out. if you read those wrong, tough. its not my fault they sound funny. maybe there'll be more later. and i havent forgotten that playlist |
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